March 3rd

Today is my brother's birthday. He is 36!!, which just sounds OLD to me. I still can't get over the fact that I'm 34. I had always imagined being a very mature, having-it-all-together 40 year old, and now I'm starting to think how hilarious that sounds. hhaa. I tried to call Jabe tonight, to no avail, even though he was on FB 10 min later?? so I'm thinking he's at work, or at a huge b'day bash held in his honor and can't bare to leave the party on account of his little sister calling;) I sent him a funny card, w/ a little boy w/ a mask,cape and underwear on...said something like "i hope at least you are not still wearing THIS anymore". He prob'ly is. One of my funniest memories of my brother, was him going thru the house in full-on attack-mode, wielding a butter knife or spatula, or some kitchen utensil, pretending to be Bruce Lee. He rented a book about him from the library and was going thru these drills BL used to do?? I swear, he lived in his own reality. It was hilarious. I still bring it up from time-to-time to razz him just for the hay of it. I have plenty of other things on him too. Like how he used to test the sharpness of his pocket knives by shaving his legs w/ them. Told him that's why he has the legs of a gorilla now. hhaa. I have a cool brother. I just wish I could see him more, or even talk to him more for that matter. Mom and I were just talking tonight about spending her Spring Break up in the mtns, and see JB and all the boys. My boys have been begging for months, and we keep sending the cousins little presents in the mail and such, but we really need to just get together.

I just got done watching Jane Eyre. Sadly, I've never read the book, nor knew anything about it, so it was soooo good! Took me back to my adolescence watching those old school movies and falling in love w/ the main character (the guy, not the girl)....MAN, was it GOOD! OMG! I didn't know whether i wanted to cry, scream, puke or run a mile at the end of the movie. What a rollercoaster!!! My stomach is still churning!:) I always listen to what ppl say about a movie and I'd heard it was awesome, so I always think if everyone likes a movie, then it has to end good:) I'm hoping the same for Hunger Games. I'm on the last book, Mockinjay, but it's not reading as fast as the others. It's been a bit slow in the beginning.

I worked this morning. Just had 2 clients. The first one was my regular of 6+ years who I love so...and the 2nd was a guy I massaged back in '08. I remembered his face when I saw him and he's really nice. I had an hour and a 1/2 deep tissue with him, so it wore me out so much. Not being there since January and then boom, doing that! But walked out of there, between my commission and tips today, with $140 for 2.5 hrs of work!!! ...well, setup and drive time too, but 2.5 hrs of actual WORK! That is just crazy!!! Sharon tipped me 40 bucks and he tipped me 20!!!??? Talk about awesome. That is when I truly love my job. To work with ppl who truly appreciate what I do, and show that by tipping me so good. Gosh, wow. I was blown away! I was a bit stressed going in to work today, as one of my favorite coworkers just gave her notice Wednesday and then her last day was yesterday:( She worked the front desk and was the sweetest lady, and a Christian. She was the one who came over w/ armloads of food the very 1st night I was home from the hospital. I'm going to miss her terribly. I hate change. Her daughter was in a very bad boating accident this summer, where the driver died on impact and several others were injured badly, including her daughter. She's fine now, but she had a very emotional summer going thru all that last year. When she brought me food (and junk magazines and a book:), it made it that much more meaningful to me, bc I know she has been thru the ringer and understands what it feels like to need help. I'm hoping we'll get together soon. I've stayed friends w/ a few other girls who have left over the years. It will be sad to not see her my 2 days a month though:/ 

Last week was a weird week for me. I was very unorganized, extremely tired and was not on top of my game. My laundry is backed up, my house is cluttery, and I didn't plan school ahead of time. We did school Tues-Friday nontheless, but I felt so guilty by the end of the week....felt like i was slipping back into my bad habits of before I was sick. Feeling pressured, stressed, running behind. I hate that feeling. I'm hoping tomorrow I can stay home and clean and organize myself for the week. I think I am still at a loss for menu's etc bc I am still so limited on what I can eat. I've been feeling very frustrated on that front again and am ready to be done w/ it. I guess maybe I'm a little fearful about my test on the 12th and what it may reveal. I hate to say that, but I guess when it comes to myself and my health, I tend to always fear the worst. I don't think I was like that until a few years ago,...when in a short matter of months, I found out that our cancer-free family had not 1 but 2 ppl who had cancer in it.....So, I will pray and hope. I know it's prob'ly nothing ridiculous like that, but even hearing anything scary that may affect the rest of my life and how I function, or what I eat on a longterm basis, just gives me some fear. I hate being sick, and just going back to the gym last week and seeing how much more alive I felt...wow. Boy, I had missed it so. It is part of who I am. I absolutely love to be there and lift weights and push myself to the brink. I guess this week I'll try to wrap my brain around running again. I guess I've not wanted to do too much, but the 24th is coming right up, and if I don't run at all, I'll be walking that 5k w/ my mom--eesh. 

Anywho, just a lot going on in my brain tonight. E and M had their Awana Grand Prix this morning. Randall helped them get their cars ready the last coupla nights and they decorated them themselves. R spray painted them and then the boys colored them w/ permanent markers. They were interesting--hhaa. R was getting mad at me bc I guess I was making comments. He took it as I didn't like the cars. I was just adding my 2 cents. I wanted to pimp them out, but he wanted them to do them on their own...which i do agree on that. But I also didn't want my kids to bring in idiotic cars if everyone had pimped out ones!! hhaaa. oh gosh. So ridiculous. But R says theirs weren't the worst, and it didn't matter. They had fun. For some reason, E never got wheels w/ his, so R had to grab some when he got there and hammer them on. E's car didn't even make it to the finish line:( nice. He didn't care though--he's pretty clueless in that regard still, and not so competitive like I am, so that was nice. M got 2nd in the 1st heat, then 4th in the second heat, so they both got a blue ribbon to bring home...no trophies. I so wish I could've been there. Times that that I could care less about the job. Seems I always miss the cool stuff, even though I work 2 days per month. wah wah.

After work I came home and changed and we took the kids to the big wooden park. It was slammed w/ kids. The kids love it there. I love it too, but also keeps me on high alert w/ all the kids and multiple unlocked gates for the kids to run out of. Def a park to take 2 adults to. Stopped by work to pick up my book, which I'd forgotten, and then we went to what's left of the local mall. A lot of the chain stores are closed down now, so it looks like a ghost town out there. We puttered around Sears, which is closing down and sposedly having a great sale. Everything's still a million dollars, so we didn't buy anything. My feet were killing me so I went to buy flip flops at Payless, so of course that means I bought a pair of sexy nude-colored platform heels...and no flippy flops. :) They were $30, which has to mean the most expensive pr in the store, but I really loved them, and made decent $ today, so I treated myself for once. R wasn't upset when he saw them:) Now maybe I should buy myself a dress? yeah, maybe. After that we decided on a whim to go see The Lorax, which turned out to be hilarious!! We ran into Tina and her Mom and Dad and her son, so we all sat together and my kids stole all their popcorn:) Randall so kindly went to refill it, which i found out after is FREE! omg. Nice, Kids!! We all laughed a lot and it felt good. 

Well, I should go to bed but i'm all worked up from that movie! That and Pride and Prejudice are neck in neck for my fave now. Wow! Church tomorrow then maybe the strawberry fest in Floral City. That sounds just cruel to me since i can't eat them!!!!! Shaking fist in the air! ha. We've never been so I bet the kids would have fun! I wish they had pig races like the big s'berry fest in Plant City. That's the funniest thing I've ever seen.

Night-O!