Not great, but still good enough

 So today started out a little rough. Slept a full 8 hrs to wake up exhausted once again. Got the kids fed and dressed and got myself dressed, fighting myself the whole way to make myself go to the gym. Had so many wrestling thoughts about why i feel the way i do...Prego? sickness caught from a sick friend i took dinner to recently? Depressed?? why in the world am i feeling like crud all the time? So in the midst of changing Miles' poo once again~(yes, the "badword" hid in my xtra bedroom behind the curtains and royally crapped himself yet AGAIN!), and trying to argue w/ myself to go or not to go to the gym, i finally just stuck to my guns and went. Told myself that i'd only do 1/2 an
hour. When i got there, the one girl that always drops her girls off when i'm there and walks on the tready across from me was in the childcare room. Long story short, she's the one watching the kids today.?? so i introduced myself and she was really nice. funny bc she normally will barely even say hi to me. so maybe she's just shy. we had a nice little chat about our kids. Her girls are a smidge older than my boys and look the same as my boys--older one dark and younger one blonde:) talked about having more kids (Her: No. Me: prob'ly) so that was cool. Did some nice new exercises from Brooke Burke from Women's Fitness or some health magazine in my bathroom, and then decided to do my running too. had only planned on the running. I worked out so slow that i only got in a 2 mile run/walk...ran 1.5 miles. So i felt 10x better after i left. I was nauseous before and wasn't after, so?? maybe it was my B-12 pill? no idea. just so tired of feeling so tired. blah blah.
Came home and got ahold of Ash and they decided to come over around 4 so Miles would be awake. They got there a little later and she helped me cut up all the turkey from last night's T'giving dinner so i made a huge Poppyseed Turkey Casserole. it turned out REALLY good. ate WAY too much. Dang you, comfort food!!! ugh. i really screwed my diet today, eating like junk. always do when i'm so wasted and feeling like junk. not good. not good at all.

Cute candles Ash brought me:) along w/ a cute notepad and
some really nice body lotion in the coolest little bottle. Soo sweet!

Had so much fun having Ashlee and the kids over. Her hubbs was up in PCB working, so it was just them. We don't have ppl over nearly enough, and it was so laid back and fun. just talking, letting the kids play, and eating as one big family around the round table:)) i just love them so. Then we went outside and watched the kids ride bikes and watch my boys lose their minds and have meltdowns since it was 30 min passed their bedtimes. cracks me up really. then while having the meltdown, "I am NOTTTT TIRED!!!" yeah, ok. Ash brought me some really cute presents tonight, just bc she knew i felt so bad this morning, so i'll post a pic of the candles she gave me. so cute, and purple's my favorite color, so it was really sweet. Just so thankful for her friendship. been like a breath of fresh air in my life lately.
Had alot of thoughts going on today, but mostly gratefulness. God has been bringing ppl into my life lately to support and encourage me, and I've just been stopping to recognize it as it happens. I also felt proud of myself for not living by my feelings today and going to the gym. Met a girl i've been wanting to meet for awhile, and literally felt so much better physically and mentally after leaving. was the workout great? no. but, it was good enough. I think that's all God wants. our best on any given day. was def not in top form today, yet i chose to live by what i knew to be true, and God turned my bad day into good. just thankful.

Best cook book EVER! Use it alot!!

What the coffee cake's s'posed to look like. You put a
cup of butternut squash puree in the middle between
2 layers of batter. Also has walnuts and mini marshmallows!

Thought mine looked better than the pic in the book!! Smells Insane!

After Ash and the kids left, called my good friend Karla and had a nice chat. Love talking to her bc she just cracks me up so hard, and seems we always have so much to talk about. i love that. Decided to finally cook up that coffee cake w/ the butternut squash from the cookbook i love, Deceptively Delicious. It's smelling really great, so i hope the kids like it:) anything to get them to eat more veggies. I'm so tired, but hafta wait til it's done to hit the hay. prob'ly really regret it in the morning. Liz (Verone) is s'posed to come over to visit tomorrow, so i gotta go send her directions. haven't seen her in yrs. R said he's taking E to work w/ him tomorrow, so i'm a little excited:)) will make my day so much easier! nice to have a break, even from 1 kid, every now and again. love my rugrats, but they bug the fool outta each other 1/2 the time and i get so sick of referree'ing!! night all.