so today school went well, and we did have a great hour or so swim time over at Mary's house. just me w/ the boys alone. they were swimming/jumping fools. we laughed alot.
Most the rest the day i've been in alot of pain and just lower than low. just feel like crying for no apparent reason. Just praying this is all Aunt Flow related. i can't take much more of this. it's really starting to bother me that i'm feeling this low. going to bed. work in the morning. days like this i hate my job. hard to make someone feel good and give so much of myself when i don't feel like there's anything to give. praying it's only the 2 hrs they said i had earlier today. i'll block myself off when i go in. 2nd guessing myself on some decisions and praying to God for wisdom about our future and the possibility of having another kid. been weighing heavily on my mind. So thankful for my boys. they are the light of my life.
time for slumber. God knows i need it.