Selling my kids to the circus....

Well, today I finally snapped. I lost my mind and almost went off. I felt like selling both my kids to the circus. For reals.

My Mom came over on Friday to spend a coupla days w/ us. I was a little apprehensive, as my house had gotten the upper hand on me. Things like: the playroom looked like a bomb had blown up in it, the schoolroom looked like piles of junk everywhere, and my "junk drawer" in my kitchen had overgrown the drawer and had become the "junk corner", taking over the entire end of the counter. I think I seriously have Adult ADD, bc when my boys are running around playing and being loud, laughing hysterically or just whatever, I can't seem to get anything done. I walk in circles, picking things up and walking around like a drone. So yeah, as the school year wound down to a close, things had gotten pretty cluttery and annoying. Now, my laundry was done, I was proud to say, but the rest of the house was just...UGH. SO, Mom came over. She LOVES to clean. I call it her mental illness--"the love of cleaning" :) It's actually a good thing, wonderful thing, but it can make me feel like a loser sometimes. So, as she came in, I said, "HI MOM! I look like crap today and so does my house! WELCOME!" :) and then, we got to work. When we clean, we both deep clean and organize, so it always takes so much time. We cleaned the school room, kitchen, living room, even all the baseboards. I went thru everything and threw tons of crap away. I wish I had a before and after. R had taken E to work w/ him, so M just quietly played all day w/out a sound. It was so nice. After we got done cleaning (at 4pm. We started around 10), we took our long list to walmart and restocked the groceries. The house felt so good. I felt like finally I'd make a crack in the house...OH! We even cleaned out the freezer and totally reorganized it. It's amazing.

Anywho, Saturday we got up and went to Body Pump class together. It was tough bc I'd only worked out 1 other day last week, so I could totally feel a difference. Then we headed to Ocala, still kid-free, to hit up the fishing store for Father's Day gifts and Target for some organizing stuff for the play room. It was nice to just get out for a few hrs w/out the kids. More on Father's Day later.....

Anywho, after Mom's visit, I got inspired to really keep up w/ the house and car this summer and just clean little bits here and there, and do fun stuff w/ the kids. Well today was one of those days, pretty much like every day around here, where the kids just laugh, running around acting like complete hooligans, etc etc etc and I couldn't get anything done. Esp when i try to make a phone call for 5 min and E spills his drink ALL over the table bc why?? bc he was trying to balance it on the salt and pepper shakers! and then after we clean it up, HE DOES IT AGAIN!!?!??! what the heck.  Then I notice that E's foot is all jacked up. After going on the boat yesterday where I discovered an infected ant bite on his toe, came home and noticed this huge nasty blistery thing on the inside of his foot. I'm like what the heck? the kid never tells me he's even hurt??!! Long story short, it's even worse today, red all around it and feeling hard. It's not hot to the touch yet, but w/ the MRSA scare we had a coupla yrs ago, i just went into that sick feeling stomach zone. Called R, who told me to call the dr. So, he's going in at 4 today to get it checked out. I'll feel sorta like a doofus if it's just a blister, but I'd rather be safe than sorry.

As I was dealing w/ all that, I was in the middle of washing the car too, and come to find out, my baby child Miles, decides it would be a great idea to take his pants down and PEE all over my new outdoor welcome mat. WHY?! I'm not sure if E told him to do it or what, but we have a rule that if you wanna pee outside, you hafta ask 1st, not just start peeing everywhere like a redneck. I about lost it when i saw the pee everywhere...all down the sidewalk, all in the new rug. I took him inside and spanked his butt. Then i sent them both to bed. I really just lost my mind over it. I'm not sure what snapped, but I think I just get tired of always feeling dragged in so many directions and my kids acting like fools for no apparent reason. I was literally almost crying. So, sent them to bed and finished the car in peace. or not. When he gets up, I'll make him scrub it down w/ the soapy sponge. I rinsed it off for the time being. He cried a lot and told me he was sorry, but I just felt worn down to the bone. Sometimes I wonder why I do all that I do bc my kids act just like the next hooligan down the road. But I know that's not true....just feeling overwhelmed today.

Well, it's quiet in the house. Think I'll go read my bible. And thinking that we should reincorporate Bible time for the kids every morning like we did in school. Really seems to help.

I'll post some pics soon. I've been bad about that recently bc they've been on my camera not my phone. Today was the last day of swim lessons and they did so good. I'm glad they're over now though.