Yesterday was a complete FAIL as a parent....We started out our day great, with school going off w/out a hitch. But then in the afternoon, everything spiraled outta control again w/ Kid #1....needless to say, I didn't handle it well. I resorted to putting both boys down for nap, which I usually do on Wed's anyways, and laid down to nap myself. I had to seriously pray and ask God to forgive me, give me strength and wisdom and self-control. I was sick over it. He even woke up "off", and it was iffy the rest of the night. He did fine in Awana, but one of the mean little boys took his paper and stomped on it. I have a feeling it wasn't an accident, so we went over the whole, stay away from the mean kids and if they are being mean to you, tell the teacher immediately and tell them to PLEASE STOP. Amazing how kids can be such hoodlums at a young age. But he needs to learn how to handle himself in those situations if they arise.

I've been reading "Bringing up Boys" by James Dobson...WOW, is all I can say. I am learning so much about what boys face today and about bullying, the effects of testosterone, etc. It's been eye-opening for sure. I'm hoping to learn a lot. I think I'll either read "boys are joys" that Tina brought to me the other night--a short, funny little book about boy, by a Christian author, or The Five Love  Languages for kids--that's the one I really think I need to read. Just trying to figure out how each of my boys tick. Randall says I overthink everything, but I feel I'm just looking for answers and wisdom.

Well, had a rough night. Bad stomach issues...still feeling rough today. Also extremely sore from the gym from 2 days ago...abs and hamstrings. At least I know I can work out that hard that 2 days later I'm sore. So R took E w/ him to work today. Mentally and physically I just needed a break! I'm sitting on the couch w/ M watching Thomas:) He is so laid back, Miles...God must've known I needed a kid w/ the opposite personality than the 1st?! ha. We're still trying to decide about having another kid. After days like yesterday I want to sell all my baby stuff and make R go have a procedure. I'm not craving a baby at all. I wish I was. I've always wanted at least 3 kids, but I'm not sure I could handle it....I know God would hafta work on me like crazy. I have a hard enough time w/ the two I do have. ugh. Decisions, decisions....

On a brighter note, I ran 2 days ago at the gym and had no pain whatsoever!! I was so relieved. Did a nice interval run w/ even running a lot faster, and no problems or pain at all. I wore my old Under Armour shoes, w/ the least padding, and that seemed to be a good thing. I'm leaning more and more to getting minimalist shoes or at least ones w/ very little cushion in them from now on. I need to be able to feel the road/tready under my feet, not a pillow.

Well, I'm feeling a shade better. I need to try to at least sit and fold 6 loads of laundry and get a load of dishes going.