Well, gotta get up and get some energy to drive over to Mom's. Gotta run my 9 miler today. I'm trying to figure out what time, as I sabotagged (sp) myself and drank some diet wild cherry pepsi at my party last night and was wide awake til nearly 3am. Why does it hafta lure me in with all it's deliciousness?!?! Why I say??? I told Randall to keep that garbage outta my house from now on...pretty sure that fell on deaf ears;)
I've been kinda blah lately about running. I have my moments where I love it, but I have not enjoyed one run since I was in GA. I think I have come to realize that I only love to run outside. I love seeing the trees and world pass me by. And anything over 4 miles on a treadmill is just torture for me. 55 minutes is too long to think about how my feet are hitting the belt w/ every stride. UGH. I feel I get injured easier running on a tready too. I don't know, just really been exhausted lately, listless and ready for the race to be OVER so I can get back to regular life. Do my interval runs w/ a faster pace, shorter distance, and blow out my time on a 5k. I'm thinking I'll break my 27 min mark in March at the colon cancer run for G'ma...we'll see;) So yeah, just ready to get the race over with and go back to running and lifting weights more, which have gone by the wayside w/ all the time spent running. I only allow myself an hour at the gym, since the kids are stuck in the tiny childcare room there, so that leaves little to no time for pumping some iron. I miss that. I need that.
But I also don't want to "just get it over with"...I want to be in the moment and take in everything about it and just remember it and have fun. I want to enjoy it and not beat myself up over what time I cross the finish line with. I want to smile and wave to ppl, laugh at the crazies in costumes and just enjoy it. I'm scared...scared I'll get nauseous, wasted tired, puke, hafta poo, hafta walk a ton of it for no apparent reason. I don't know. I just know I've trained a long time and you never know how it will play out. I just want it to go well. I ripped out some pages from RW w/ some ideas on what to eat before/during the race so am gonna try some of those. Thinking that the apples before running is what is ripping my stomach up. (they said something about the fiber and the peel. Bananas are better!)
So yeah. It's hard to stay keyed up and pumped when you train for 3 long months-ha. Sounds funny saying that. It's not very long really, but feels like it when you are so tired. I just really want to accomplish this so bad. I'm really hoping today I have a great and uplifting run:)
Time to go get my clothes ready:) peace!
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