Hold me back, Lord!!

 Today is one of those days....so many ups and downs. Right now my tension level is high, and I feel like yelling at someone. Or punching someone:) I'm gonna go run 5 miles and see if it helps. A lot of little things have come together to make me feel this way, and my wonderful Mother Nature isn't helping out much either on that regard.

Let's just say, today was one of those days that I didn't realize how firmly I believed in something until someone crossed the line and said something so assanine that I had to respond. Oh yes, we're talking about FB. Do I know the person? nope. But it was in response to homeschooling. Basically that a friend of mine, who's considering homeschooling her 3 kids, is "wasting" her talents and ambition if she homeschools. I'm sure it came from a well-meaning heart and really a compliment to my friend, but it just hit me really wrong. Basically if she would use her talents, she would be so bombarded by business that she wouldn't have time to homeschool. I agree with that. That is probably the case. But that is not the point. Before I homeschooled, or heck, before I even had kids, I made some awesome money. I could go out and buy pretty much anything I wanted or needed. I bought Evan all his solid wood "lifetime" furniture and a gorgeous glider rocker w/ fabric that I picked out. It was hard for me to let go my clients who I'd become attached to and really enjoyed working with. I remember feeling lost for a few months after E was born, feeling alone, like I was just taking up air and space and not affecting anyone with my life...but I was wrong. I was affecting someone. More than one person actually. I was spending ALL my time with my boy, and taking care of our home, and making good healthy meals. I was raising up a son, singing him songs, reading him stories. How this could be a "waste" of my talents or ambitions, I will never know, because to me, there is no higher calling than our children. We have but a small window to reach them for Christ, to train them up, to raise them in the love of Jesus. I'm not saying everyone has to homeschool. I know this is not possible, nor is it for everyone. Some ppl would prob'ly do more harm by homeschooling their kids!! I have also seen that firsthand. I just think it is about priorities. I could be working right now, making 2-300$ a day, driving a brand new car, wearing designer clothes( or at least not thrift store duds) and have pretty much all our debt paid off by now, but that is not what is important to me. Am I doing the world a disservice by not using my talents? I don't think so. I think God's given me a lot more talents than just massaging ppl. I still work, albeit VERY part time, but I get so much satisfaction from my work, and knowing that I am touching others' lives, no matter how small amount of time. I have learned that my calling at home is so much more than I thought in the very beginning. I take such pride and joy in taking care of my family and home and praise God that I am able to do this right now. Sure, I may not always be able to do this, and maybe one day my kids will not be homeschooled, but I know where my priorities need to be. I believe if more ppl asked some difficult questions, scaled down their debt and finances, and put their family FIRST, in whatever capacity they could, that this world would be a better place. I'm absolutely SICK and TIRED of ppl downplaying the housewife and the mother who chooses to homeschool her kids. Take more responsibility. Take advantage of the opportunities God's given you. Whether you homeschool or not, it's all about priorities.

The End.